Rose with a Mission

All summer I had been praying and asking God for support so I could go back to YWAM. The only stipulation I put on this was that if YWAM wasn't where God wanted that He would make the support not come in.  He listened to me and had the support not come in. I was hurt and confused. I didn't know what I was doing wrong or why I wasn't getting the support as quickly as I had for everything else related to YWAM.  Then last weekend God brought an answer to a prayer that I have been praying for years.  This is Stewart, my boyfriend. He is very Godly, kind, and gentle. I have so enjoyed getting to know him and look forward to seeing what God does with this relationship in the days to come. This does mean that I'm not going to be returning to YWAM for the foreseeable future. I am going to stay at home and enjoy getting to know this great guy more.  I'm signing off for now and won't be posting weekly updates anymore.  Thank you for all the love an...

Once again, God has been faithful to lead, although it wasn't where I was hoping.  The original plan was that I would come home from YWAM, work for two months, spend lots of time with family, fundraise to become a missionary, and be back at YWAM by mid August.  This week that plan changed. It really hit me that I don't have the monthly support to return. This was hard. I went to God and asked Him what I should do. He said to stay. While this wasn't what I envisioned, I trust His plan and His guiding hand. I'm going to be staying at least until October. Right now I will continue to work at the preschool, love on family, and seek out God's best plan. Over the next few weeks I'm going to be seeking God and asking Him what Is best plan is. In the meantime, I have an exciting event to look forward to. My brother is getting married in September! I'm so excited for my brother and his lovely fiancee. They both love the Lord and are perfect for each other...

This week I was gumpy at work, I tried not to let it show, but it was there all the same. At first I didn't know why work was ticking me off.  As I prayed I realized what was going on. Unless God moves in a mighty way (which I've seen Him do before), I won't be able to go back to YWAM in mid August like I had hoped.  This week I was struggling with that disappointed hope. While I know that God is working all things for my good and He ultimately has control of where I go, it hit me that I wouldn't get back there as soon as I want to.  Something that has softened this realization is that I am in a good place. With God, at home, and in life. God and I have a great relationship, I have a great home to live in, and I'm thriving in relationships. God is good. Ultimately even if I don't get to go back to YWAM as a missionary, I can trust God's guiding hand. He has never failed me before and He will never fail me.  So I can slip my hand into His and walk...

This last week has been very full. For starters my brother got engaged!  We are so happy to welcome this lovely lady into the family and that my brother found such a Godly lady to call his own. While they have jumped into wedding planning, I got a cold. I'm so thankful for the coworkers I have that covered a few days of work for me while I was sick and let me rest. And I'm thankful for the little kids that felt bad for me feeling sick.  I feel like life has been so full that I've been a bit stretched thin lately. So many emotions, so much to do, so much to process, and only so many hours in the day. I'm thankful that God has been showing me how to love those around me well and how to rest and let my body heal. As I continue to walk forward into what He wants me to do, I'm so thankful that He's taken all the guess work out. He keeps reminding me to keep asking for support, keep loving those in front of me, keep doing what I know to do, kee...

A huge shout out to my sister grace for the new blog graphic! She is so talented and I loved the way it turned out. This week there isn't much to report. I continue to work at my job, pray, and spend time with friends and family. Life is good. Today I am deeply grateful for God's healing/restoring power in my life. Today marks five years since my engagement was broken. As I look back I see God moving and working to heal and restore a shattered me. He made me new. He restored my soul. And for that I am so grateful.  Even when there's not much to say, I can always take comfort in how far God has brought me, both in the last five years and in the last year. He's helped me take giant leaps towards knowing Him. He's given me adventures beyond my wildest dreams. He has given me a heart that wants Him more than anything.  What are you grateful for today? Grateful, Rose