Rose with a Mission

  I once did a blog post about how much my kids at the preschool have taught me about the way God sees me. This last week and a half of working in a preschool has given me more insight. She all but smashed two pieces together trying to make progress on the puzzle. She proudly showed them to me. Is this how I look to You, God? When I'm trying desperately to fit things together that are mismatched? He was fighting not to nap with everything in him. Is this how I look to You, God? Is this why You make us lie down in green pastures? Because I fight the rest I so desperately need? He kept crying when he didn't get his way and missed out on so much fun.  Is this how I look to You, God? I get so focused on one thing that I can't enjoy what is right in front of me.  He walked into the room and hugged me so tight.  Is this how I look to You, God? When I get discouraged and come to You for comfort? If it melts my heart, I wonder if it melts Your heart too.  I'm...

Several times in the last month and a half I've stopped to ask myself why I am doing this. Why am I leaving my home of the last 23 years to go live in a dorm? Why am I leaving a good church family to invest in another? Why am I leaving a good job? Why am I leaving behind the familiar for the unknown? Why am I going to YWAM? The answer is simple. I want to know Him. I know Him now, but I want to get more wrapped up in Him. I want to know and experience God on a deeper level.  We have a million pursuits that we can chase in this world, I want to chase Him. He has already been pursuing and loving me when I was hostile to Him. I want to spend this season getting to know Him.  A few months ago I was struggling with a feeling of weakness. I felt incredibly weak in areas that had been accustomed to feeling strong in. This made me run to God. I cried out for help and grace. Every single time God provided grace for my needs. Whether it was strength to go to work, encouraging words for ...